Latvia

So… I was in Latvia at the start of July for 17 days. Our team this year was a joint Exodus – Glasgow Westend Vineyard team. We had 4 team members, but once in Lativa we linked up and worked with other teams.

The first week we helped to run a kids camp in Zosna. Half the kids were from the local city, Rēzekne, and half were from the orphanage in Ruzina. We were working alongside a local pastor, another Exodus team, and a Navs team. Our days were spent running around with kids, pushing kids on swings, playing frisbee, volleyball (some of the boys on the Exodus teams got a bit too into this…!), doing Bible studies, having campfire banter (Pregnant Phil… ’nuff said!), going to banya (incredible!), and dancing to Pharoah, Pharoah and Making Melodies. We were in a beautiful location too, right between two lakes.

In the second week we moved to Ruzina, were we helped to run a prayer conference and did some work in orphanage (same one the kids from camp were at). We stayed with a local missionary, Levi, who is a complete legend. There where 8 nationalities (I think) at the prayer conference… its true what people say, there is a real power in unity. We had a morning and evening meeting every day, both of which regularly lasted at least two and a half hours. We went into the orphanage a few days, playing with the kids, painting their faces, ballon modelling, singing silly songs etc.

The orphanage we were in is the best one in Latvia, so they have a good life materially (bunk beds, TVs, sofas, play sets, swings, etc), but they seem to be starved for love. The first day we went in, this little kid ran up to me and hugged my leg so tight, he just would not let go! They just want to be held, to be played with, to be loved. There is a hunger for love. Some of them have the saddest of stories… I only heard 2 of the kids stories, but they alone are enough to break your heart.

As I sat on ‘holiday’ in the US shortly after this trip, I was broken. I wept for these kids. My heart cried… “Jesus if you don’t intervene, what hope do they have? You are their only hope. You are my only hope.”

Our last few days were spent in the capital city, Riga. Here we spent time together as a team, processing, debriefing. We also did some ministry. We gave away some bottles of water. We went to a church meeting with some folks we met on the streets. We witnessed incredible healings. We saw more of God.

Personally, I received confirmation in my mind for Africa. The simple, laidback lifestyle. The poverty. I can do it.

Latvia was a very humbling experience. To be there from a perspective of coleading a team provides a new dynamic… I am partially responsible for these people, for their wellbeing, their safety. To be trusted to that extent by the team members, by those in authority over us, by parents, is humbling. I only pray I gave God glory through it.

Part of my heart is now in Latvia. There are kids I lost my heart to there. Someday (soon) I hope to return.

[Pictures coming soon… some are on flickr already]

Foy @ Black Box

… is completely sold out again! Raging.

Please…. I REALLY want a ticket for this…. anyone?

Waiting On God

I spent last night on the North Coast with a ‘random’ (I use that word with hesitation… random to each other, completely individually chosen by God) mish-mash of friends and friends of friends, seeking God. Literally, some friends just decided they wanted to set aside time to seek God, and organised several nights of waiting on God… prayer, worship, etc.

God is on the move.

God is on the move on the North Coast. God is on the move in my life. God is on the move.

Remember the vision of Generation 24?

This is it.

Freedom & Security

I have a million and one things going through my head right now.

I read an article in yesterdays Guardian paper, “To Have and To Hold” by Stuart Jeffries. It’s about our modern phobia of commitment, and it raises some interesting points for me.

He quotes,

“But promises of committment are meaningless in the long term, too – committment isn’t an act of free will.”

Huh? Surely committment is a free-will choice by design – is that not what makes it different from obligation? We make the decision that we will commit to something, and we follow through on that (or not, as the case may be). If we renege on a commitment, that too has been our choice. To me that quote just doesn’t make sense.

Later he quotes Melanie Phillips, who defends the institution of marriage, as saying,

“The law is based on justice; justice requires that you don’t get something for nothing. You don’t claim rights if you don’t enter obligations.”

Jeffries tries to claim that this point is invalid, as cohabiting partners are just as committed to each other as married couples. So why not just get married? If they are that committed to each other what stops them getting married? The fear that it may fall through…? I feel I should reiterate that point: You don’t claim rights if you don’t enter obligations.

I heard a sermon recently on how we are “options” people, but God is an “obligation” person… need to look out my notes from it for further observations.

Loved this quote from it,

“Love has always been difficult, but now more than ever when we seek both freedom from love’s bonds and at the same time yearn for the security it seems to offer.”

I’m Still Yours

This song is me right now…

Though I sleep, my heart is awake
Though It’s night, on You I wait

It’s been a long night, and I am weary
It’s been a long time, and I am hungry
So I’ll wait in the stillness again
I’ll wait in the quiet again
For when I heard Your voice
When You said my name
When I heard Your voice
My heart it yearned

In the middle of the night
In the middle of the night
In the middle of the night
My heart it yearns

Though You’re far away, still I’m here to say
I am Yours, I am Yours
And when You feel so far away, still I am here to say
I am Yours, I am Yours

And I pay my vows, no turning around
I burn the bridges that can’t be found

For when I heard Your voice
And You said my name
When I heard Your voice
My heart it yearned
For You.

[ I Am Yours – Misty Edwards ]

Take Me To The Cross

I got to go to my church in Glasgow this morning for the first time in a few months. It was such a privillege to be back… I really do love this place. It was great to worship with friends (family), and to get to chat to folks I haven’t seen in ages. I got a suprise when I discovered that John is moving to NI… not a shock, because it totally fits them down to the ground. Will be sad to see them go, but I’m excited for them.

Jen said something at the start of praise this morning that really hit me:

“Take me to the cross, and I’ll find my way from there…”

I love that image. The cross is central. The cross is the key to everything. It’s where I find my identity. When I’m weak, take me to the cross. When I’m excited, take me to the cross. When I am apathetic, take me to the cross. When I’m full of joy, take me to the cross.

It’s home. It’ll always lead me home.

20

I turned 20 just under a month ago…

It was pretty amazing to spend my birthday in New York. I geeked out all day long, was actually a pretty perfect birthday in many ways. It was our first day in New York, we just got in the night before, so I had a big ol’ breakfast of pancakes and bacon and maple syrup at the hotel. Next stop was the International Center of Photography. The current exhibitions were “Let Your Motto Be Resistance: African American Portraits”, “Chim: Photographs by David Seymour”, “Amelia Earhart: Image & Icon”, and “Biographical Landscape: The Photography of Stephen Shore, 1969-79”. All very good exhibitions.

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My favourite was “Let Your Motto Be Resistance”, it had some stunning portraits. The cover image on the book (above) is one of my favourites.

ICP

I went to the largest camera store in NY, B&H Photo. Spent some time rummaging around in there, it was great.

Second to last stop… Apple Store 5th Avenue (Apple Mecca!). It is beautiful! The building is a glass cube above the ground, while the store is completely underground. It’s stunning. I got to play with the iPhone for the first time. I’ve gone through many phases with the iPhone… when it was first announced I was very excited, to “I don’t really need it, it wont be that great anyway”, to now that I’ve played with it, “I really really want one!” But it is ridiculously expensive, so its unlikely.

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me@applestore

To finish the day off, I had a picnic in Central Park with my family. We got some grilled corn-on-the-cob, a calzone, and some fresh lemonade to celebrate with. It was a really lovely day all in all.

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me

food

And so… I am 20. I’m no longer a teenager. I am an adult. (Supposedly!)

Here goes…

Auchinstarry

Did my first outdoor climb tonight…

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[That bit I’m on in the picture is tough… I couldn’t do it this time round… which is frustrating because I could see I could do the next part!]

Hope City (Pt 2)

Jenni wrote a post today that I really resonate with…

“Waking up in Glasgow”

There is most definately something about this city that I love. It’s great to be back here! I’m sitting in my new flat, which a rather surreal experience in itself.

Must revise for exam tomorrow.

Greater

Crazy life.

I’m finished post-processing of the Spark images. They are online at my flickr set. I’m working at dad’s office a few days. Easy work I get paid for, great. I’m going to the Christ Tomlin gig tomorrow evening after all… again… how good is God to me? I head to Glasgow on Thursday.

I need to write some proper blog posts.

I need to process my pictures from Latvia and USA.

I need to revise for my exam.

But all I want to do is praise…

I’ve found a love greater than life itself
I’ve found a hope stronger and nothing compares
I once was lost now I’m alive in You
Alive in You