As Storm Clouds Gather

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“I was sure by now
That you would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say ‘Amen’
And it’s still raining.


I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strenght is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You?”

It’s been a while since I last posted… I’ve been struggling, thats the truth. I bought this CD yesterday, and ever time I hear this song it blows me away. How many times I’ve prayed, asking God to take away the pain, to heal this broken heart, to restore this tattered soul… but it’s still raining. How long, O Lord?

Genie Lamps & Such

“The truth is there are a million steps, and we don’t even know what the steps are, and worse, at any given moment we may not be willing or even able to take them; and still worse, they are different for you and me and they are always changing.

I have come to believe the sooner we find this truth beautiful, the sooner we will fall in love with the God who keeps shaking things up, keeps changing the path, keeps rocking the boat to test our faith in Him, teaching us not to rely on easy answers, bullet points, magic mantras, or genies in lamps, but rather in His guidance, His existence, His mercy, and His love.”

First words of wisdom from Don Millar… man they cut deep. Maybe that’s why things are so tough right now… because I was searching for an easy answer, but God wanted me to start relying on Him…



the deepest longings of your heart
were there for a reason?

small-minded, boxed-in formulas of modern
religion weren’t the Truth?

the gospel of Jesus was not “safe” after all, but
full of intrigue, passion – and romance?

Bought this book today (Don Millar, Searching for God Knows What)… everytime i’ve been in the shop lately I am drawn instinctivley to this book, and I dont quite know why. I guess I kinda feel a bit like thats me at the minute, like I’m searching, but I dont really know what for. So I bought it. Wonder where it will take me…


“So–who is like me? Who holds a candle to me?” says The Holy.

Look at the night skies: Who do you think made all this? Who marches this army of stars out each night, counts them off, calls each by name –so magnificent! so powerful!– and never overlooks a single one?

Why would you ever complain, O Jacob, or, whine, Israel, saying, “GOD has lost track of me. He doesn’t care what happens to me”?

Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening? GOD doesn’t come and go. God lasts. He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine. He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out.

He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts.

[Isaiah 40:25-29, TM]

What is prayer?

I’ve been learning a lot about prayer… Lately my life has been a bit ‘turbulent’, I have been pretty up and down, and a lot has been happening both in me personally and in the people around me. There has been a lot of pain surrounding me – family members and friends both going through some tough times.

How do I pray for these guys? Intercession… feeling their pain… lets be honest, it hurts. We dont like to hurt – I dont like to hurt. But to pray for these guys, the guys I love, that I’m close to, that I spend my time with… praying effectively for them means hurting for them. Feeling their pain. It means I have to be vulnerable and open and allow God to work through me to move in their lives… I have to be willing to feel their pain.

And that’s tough.