"All of You is more than enough for all of me"
What does that mean? What's it actually mean in practice? We believe deep down that God is enough, but do we really live it? In the dark nights, do I really believe God is enough for everything in me? And if I believe it how is it supposed to alter how I react to things? Why do I still question/doubt/fear?
You are enough Lord.
I've had a bit of a weird time lately. Been thinking a lot about my future, and especially about marriage, family, etc. I'll be honest… I met this guy a good while ago who so totally captivated me… he was (is?) everything I wanted in a guy and so much more. He was the kind of guy that when you spend time with him or even just are talkig to him on the phone, he sparks a fire in your heart, makes you want to be more like Jesus, makes me want to know Jesus more. His passion is infectious… you couldn't escape it. As far as I was concerned, he was "The One". And yet we are not together. We have never been together. Now, we see each other very little, and hardly ever talk or email. And that's so hard sometimes.
Then yesterday I was reading a blog post, and it was like… BANG! There it is. The guy who wrote it was talking about the break-up of his relationship, and while I never dated the aforementioned guy, it resonated with me deeply. He talked about how even though we may not really believe in "The One", we still want it to happen to us. [Check]. He talked about how you keep noting in your journal the date you are finally free from thinking about the other person… and again. And again. [Check]. He talked about having your prayers come full circle from "God help me" to "teach me some lesson through this" to "surely You have a plan for this pain" to "God help me" again. [Check].
And then came these words:
"We need to wrap our minds around the concept that somehow, some way, we can be happy and whole and full again… I held unto the truth even when the thought of a new love terrified me ."
Wow. Those words hit me like a ton of bricks. I still don't know if this guy is "The One" for me. But I am learning (slowly) to trust in God's truth. Even if he is not, there is still hope for me. I can love again. There is hope.
At church on Sunday the speaker talked about dreams. I like to dream. Here are a few of the main points that stick out in my mind:
Dreams fuel hope.
Dreams focus faith.
Dreams free others.
Dreams are multigenerational (they live on long after you die).
Everyone needs dreams. I have a lot of passions, but I’m not sure I have any fully-fledged dreams yet (aside from being a wife and a mum, but I think every little girl has that dream).
I have passions. I am passionate about God, about photography, about Africa, about New Zealand, about computers, about maths… yes, I have many passions. And I’m feeding them. I’m waiting to see what dreams develop. It’s exciting!
Do you/ Did you have dreams? What do you dream of? Go on, leave a comment!
I find the journey hard, but it’s the reason I was born.
“Moses has been tending sheep in this region for 40 years… How many times has he stood in this exact place? And now God tells him the ground is holy?
Has the ground been holy the whole time and Moses is just becoming aware of it for the first time? Do you and I walk on holy ground all the time, but we are moving so fast… that we miss it?”
[Rob Bell – Velvet Elvis]
So I was reading through Velvet Elvis today and came across this passage, which has got me thinking about last week (One Way) again.
Last week I was completley blown away with Gods’ faithfulness and power and holiness. It just hit me all over again and made me feel so small (which I am) in comparison to God. So heres what I’m thinking about… God moved in a huge way in school last week, and I really felt like I was standing on holy ground on Thursday evening especially.
Standing in the assembly hall. In the same place I’ve stood for the last 7 years.
And it was holy ground.
Has it always been holy ground? Am I only noticing it now? Why haven’t I noticed it before? And if it has always been holy ground, then how should my attitudes change when I’m standing there?
“Surely the Lord is in this place, and I was not aware of it…” (read more)
Turn your gaze
To Heaven and raise
A joyous noise
The sound of salvation come
The sound of rescued ones
And all this for a king
Angels join to sing
‘All for Christ our King!’
Ohh praise Him!
Ohh praise Him!
He is Holy!
He is Holy!
God is amazing.
I forget that far too easily. This past week God has just blown me away again. I foget how big and how powerful and how far beyond my imagination He really is.
One Way was incredible… God really moved in school and just touched people with His love. I am so blessed to have been a part of it. Thank you Jesus. Watching Thursday evening unfold was just stunning – after Mitch spoke and the band started playing again, people who had made or wanted to make committments to Jesus started to move out of the main hall, into a different room to talk to someone. I dont think I have ever seen a more beautiful sight… kids (i say kids, theyre not that much younger than me) getting out of their seats in droves… Jesus thank you!
I cried.
“The sound of salvation come, The sound of rescued ones.”
I actually just stood at the back for a short time, and cried. Words don’t do it justice. Jesus reclaimed some ground that was lost. And now all I can do is stand back in awe, and sing, Ohh Praise Him!
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